Between A Rock And A Hard Place

Poor little guy, I wonder if he can jump that high or if he has the potential to? Kind of like some of us once in a while. Do we have the potential to make that leap of faith or are we grounded by any number of fears when it comes to making that leap. 
I have worked at my current place of employment for several years, going on year number 5, if I remember correctly. And it's a job that I have for the most part, always enjoyed. Of course, now and again we all have bad days and swear we are going to call in dead or simply part ways with our current employment situation. {{I have found calling dead doesn't work so well}} I saw this picture and found it perfect for my current situation. I am trying to stick out, knowing no other job will start me out at what I am making now, at least not any job I come across so far. Sadly, money plays a factor. I still have bills to pay...damn this world for creating such an ugly thing as bills! Trust me, I have done some searching and applying. Now, don't get me wrong, it's not a horrible and ugly place to work for..it's a very good company and for the most part, I love the people I work with. As much as a pessimist as I am, I am not an overly negative person. I am only negative when it comes to myself, in and out of the work place. I am doing my best to curb any "wrong" emotions or "feelings" while at work, but the place seems rampant on negative feelings and no..it's not all on me. Though, I have been told I set the tone. I get that..so I am trying to remain cheerful and as upbeat as possible. But it's hard, not only on me, but on others who have spoken of the same. One can only take so many negative comments about you're not exactly good enough {{not necessarily in those words}} before you absolutely wonder why are you here? No matter how crappy the work day or how smoothly things ran, it boils down to pleases and thank you's, commending on a job well done, and some correcting on how to make things go better. And by correcting I don't mean making someone feel like utter crap, making them cry, or making them feel less than a person. Just a thought...
Anyhow, moving on from my little "take this job and shove it" rant..I have felt a slight stirring of the muse. She actually had a brill idea early this morning at 3 am when she should have remained quiet. She has a weird way of showing up at the worse times. I want to work on my writing again and am considering using my Bebo roleplay character as I have mentioned before. I am considering writing pages from her "diary". Not that demons keep diaries or journals, but my character was never quite like others of her kind. So..if you see a post with a pic of Katie Cassidy, titled Memoirs of Madness...it will be one of my attempts at channeling my muse!